When I started running last year, and then started training for the Chicago marathon, and then FINISHED the Chicago marathon, people told me all the time how brave I was. How courageous. How they could NEVER do that.
It always took me back a bit.
I mean, brave?
Sure, I worked hard. I put in lots of time. I read lots and learned a ton and screwed up, and learned some more.
But, brave?
I never felt very brave - determined, yes. Accomplished too. But the scariest part was clicking "submit" on my race registration. The rest of it was just REQUIRED to get me across a finish line in one piece.
Yesterday morning I answered the phone. It was my Mom. Right away, I asked her what was wrong. I know her voices, and I didn't like the one she was using.
Turns out, my teeny tiny 88 year old Grandmother, who's been in assisted living and on dialysis (she only has one barely functioning kidney) since just after my Grandfather passed away more than 3 years ago, had made an important decision.
My Grandma has had enough.
She is discontinuing her dialysis, which means that she only has maybe a couple weeks to live.
She is leaving it in God's hands.
Now, THAT, that is brave.
I will go to see her on Thursday before heading to Duluth for the race. It will likely be the last time I get to spend with her. On Saturday, if I get to run, there will be lots of miles dedicated to her...
Your grandma IS brave and doing what is right for her. I am happy you get to see her and dedicate some miles to her. I hope you tell her all about it! :)
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your Grandma. She is very brave. Good Luck Sat. Your Grandma will be with you for the whole 26.2 miles.
ReplyDeleteYes ma'am, that is about as brave as brave gets. God bless and keep that woman. I'm praying for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your grandmother. That is a very brave and courageous decision that she has made.
ReplyDeleteMay you run swiftly and courageously.
sorry about g'ma those things are always tough, but she sounds strong and amazing.
ReplyDeletei agree brave isn't how i look at the marathon...maybe crazy :)
Sorry about your Grandma, much love to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteOh, Bobbi. Your grandma is a brave lady, as are you to support her and love her through this. I'll be thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear the news. Grandma's Marathon running for your Grandma...sounds like the perfect tribute to her. *giant virtual hug here*
ReplyDeleteBobbi, I'll be thinking of you on Saturday. I hope you get to run your heart out :)
ReplyDeleteDon't blame Grandma one bit...sounds like she knows where she'll be landing on the other side :)
ReplyDeleteRawk that race Bobbi...I have a feeling you will.
I'll be thinking about you both on Saturday!
ReplyDeleteBrave, strong women seem to run in your family. :)
ReplyDeletePrayers for your Grandma and hugs to you!
I agree, your tiny granny is brave making that decision. A marathon is scary but does not compare. Enjoy your visit with her. I know you'll honor her every step of that 26.2.
ReplyDeleteI totally agree - it's very brave to find deep peace with the road that is ahead. You're very fortunate that your kids got to know their great grandmother to the extent they'll actually remember her and that you get this final (?) trip to see her. Good luck with everything this weekend!
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